Late last night, I received this text message:
"Member that bitch said I didn't have any goals? Whats up now!"
All I could do is bust out laughing when I read it. So I fished around my wallet and found the original email (YES I CARRY THIS ACTUAL TATTERED EMAIL AROUND IN MY WALLET) that the text was referring too. Here it is in it's entirety:
I have been thinking and that is all I have been doing. I cannot stop thinking about yesterday and what you did to me. I do not know if you will ever know what i was going through on Sunday. I know you and you are thinking, I was being dramatic or desperate, and you can think what you want but I was upset and I was a mess.
You had choices yesterday..................................and you decided to go with the choice that hurt me. I do not want that in a boyfriend. I would never treat you that way and I know that I do not deserve to be treated that way.
Right now I was you to decide what you want. I know what I want. I want you in my life, but I never want to feel that way again. If you want to be with me you need to make that decision and make a commitment to me and to us. By that i mean uou have to put me first in your life. That may sound selfish of me, but it is what I want. I will continue to put you first in my life.
I guess what I am saying is, if you want to be with me, you need to tell me and show me that now or let me go.
I feel as though I give you freedom, at least as much as a serious relationship allows and still I was taken advantage of.
Can you come over tomorrow night so that we can resolve something. I want you to decide what you want so I think that giving you a day to think about it will mean you will have some sort of answers tomorrow night. For example, when I ask you tomorrow night what you want, I hope that you will know. I want to know what your goals are.
It is up to you.
You guys can take it as you will but I find that it is a masterful, powerful and tantalizing email. I have carried this email with me for about 10 years. Don't worry I have others that I carry and will share with you over time.